Recently I can't go to sleep early. I always want to make myself so tired that I can fall into sleep once I get into bed.
I am glad to have my spare time again, but sometimes I feel lonely at home. And I am a bit lost about my future, whether I should stay within the company or I should open a new path of life. I should invest more on some projects or I should let things go. All the struggles stop me from sleeping early.
Um... I can't blame anyone, but myself. I should listen to Dan Goldstein "Ad is a game of team work, you always need to be with the top notch team. Otherwise you will be regretted." Now I got what he means.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Enough
I start to doubt about the decision of moving to Beijing. I love the people here, but I hate the working culture.
I had enough listening all the bull shit.
I had enough wasting my time to help others perform.
I had enough bearing the attitude of uncooperative coworkers.
I had enough tolerating the cowardliness from the management.
I know "TEAM WIN, INDIVIDUAL WIN". But somehow it is too tough to make the team win.
Anyway I had enough.
I had enough listening all the bull shit.
I had enough wasting my time to help others perform.
I had enough bearing the attitude of uncooperative coworkers.
I had enough tolerating the cowardliness from the management.
I know "TEAM WIN, INDIVIDUAL WIN". But somehow it is too tough to make the team win.
Anyway I had enough.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Trip To India
India is a mysterious and exotic country, it is like a girl with an unveiled mask. This time I went to New Delhi for a workshop. I am excited about the trip since I am longing for visiting India a long time.
The first three days I was stuck at the workshop, I did not have a chance to see the city. But our Indian coworkers are so nice and friendly to us, Preetika spent the entire day with us, taking us to amazing Indian food and helping bargain on stuff.
The traffic in Los Angeles is bad, but it is nothing when compared with the traffic in Delhi.
The drivers in Delhi horned all the time, you felt that they can’t drive without horning each other. I can’t imagine if I need to live in the 24hours horning noise. I did exaggerate about 24 hours, the traffic was horrible from morning even up till midnight. We traveled from the city to back to hotel which is around the suburb of New Delhi. It took us 3 hours for just 10 miles distance.
The driver in Delhi has a wild driving style. You think left lane is the fastest lane, Indian driver totally broke the concept. We were stuck at a spot for minutes, the driver became inpatient, then he drove to the bike lane to open its private “fast” lane. And he squeezed all the bikes around to the sidewalk. But the Indian motor bikes soon found his way and surrounded our taxi again. Our driver did not step back, on the contrary, he opened up a new fast lane again, he drove to the pedestrian sidewalks and squeezed all the pedestrians away.
This trip is a wild experience.
The first three days I was stuck at the workshop, I did not have a chance to see the city. But our Indian coworkers are so nice and friendly to us, Preetika spent the entire day with us, taking us to amazing Indian food and helping bargain on stuff.
The traffic in Los Angeles is bad, but it is nothing when compared with the traffic in Delhi.
The drivers in Delhi horned all the time, you felt that they can’t drive without horning each other. I can’t imagine if I need to live in the 24hours horning noise. I did exaggerate about 24 hours, the traffic was horrible from morning even up till midnight. We traveled from the city to back to hotel which is around the suburb of New Delhi. It took us 3 hours for just 10 miles distance.
The driver in Delhi has a wild driving style. You think left lane is the fastest lane, Indian driver totally broke the concept. We were stuck at a spot for minutes, the driver became inpatient, then he drove to the bike lane to open its private “fast” lane. And he squeezed all the bikes around to the sidewalk. But the Indian motor bikes soon found his way and surrounded our taxi again. Our driver did not step back, on the contrary, he opened up a new fast lane again, he drove to the pedestrian sidewalks and squeezed all the pedestrians away.
This trip is a wild experience.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Transitioning
There are lots of things happening in last couple weeks - Changing account to work on NOKIA, ending a relationship and friends leaving Beijing. Suddenly I have lots of personal time on my own. Instead of partying around, I just want to lay down, giving myself some time to fully rest. I spent most of the weekend and weekday nighttime to do nothing, lying on the sofa and watching TV. I have all my time to relax, relax and relax.
I don't know if I come to my early mid-age crisis or I am burnt out from the first 8 months of crazy workload. I lost motivation to do stuff. Even I have some exciting projects at work, I don't bother to spend my effort. Even there are fun parties, I don't bother to go. Now my plan is to let myself rest as much as I want to, and hope my motivation will return sometimes.
Now the only thing making me excited is to learn snowboarding. I don't feel that I made much progress in this year in terms of both career and personal interest. Therefore I set my goal in snowboarding. I already asked my coworkers to bring me along for snowboarding, I will try to go for 6-8 times this year. This year I aim to do snowboarding at a regular slope. I can't wait the winter to come!!!
Today I feel itchy out of my boredom. I guess my motivation at work may come back soon. From now on, I will update my blog twice a week, so I will keep myself moving and let others cheer me up.
I don't know if I come to my early mid-age crisis or I am burnt out from the first 8 months of crazy workload. I lost motivation to do stuff. Even I have some exciting projects at work, I don't bother to spend my effort. Even there are fun parties, I don't bother to go. Now my plan is to let myself rest as much as I want to, and hope my motivation will return sometimes.
Now the only thing making me excited is to learn snowboarding. I don't feel that I made much progress in this year in terms of both career and personal interest. Therefore I set my goal in snowboarding. I already asked my coworkers to bring me along for snowboarding, I will try to go for 6-8 times this year. This year I aim to do snowboarding at a regular slope. I can't wait the winter to come!!!
Today I feel itchy out of my boredom. I guess my motivation at work may come back soon. From now on, I will update my blog twice a week, so I will keep myself moving and let others cheer me up.
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